I've been spending a lot of time wondering what it would be like to be someone else, but in some sense, I know a little bit already what that would be like. Part of what defines us is our experiences and the environment we live in. We change as we grow, partly because the world around us, or the portion of it we are exposed to changes too. The weird thing for me right now, is that every now and again, I find myself re-exposed to parts of my life that are over. When this happens I feel as if i've been jolted into some other Lyn's skin. She's still a very familiar Lyn, still me, but she inhabits a different world.
There's Farmington Lyn, Brown Lyn, and California Lyn.
Most of the time I'm California Lyn. California Lyn is a software engineer. At night she does Kung Fu and works on her comic. In the morning she studies a little Chinese before work. She struggles a lot with loneliness and has a serious case of 20-something angst.
Farmington Lyn is the person I become when I visit my parents, or maybe even when I'm just talking to them. She feels very much like the person she was in high school, except a little older, and a little more confident (or condescending, see it how you will). Farmington Lyn feels like the world is much smaller and simpler than California Lyn, even though she knows its not true.
When I visit Brown, or the people I knew from Brown, I'm Brown Lyn. Brown Lyn thinks of her self as a computer science student. She spends a lot of time in the Sun Lab and hangs out with other CS majors. She's mostly happy except when she's seriously stressed from school work, but now-a-days, since I only become Brown-Lyn for visits, she is mostly just happy and nostalgic. Sometimes Brown Lyn remembers that she is also California Lyn, and then she gets confused and moody.
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